I wish the Earth swallowed me whole

I created this image in blender using assets from sketchfab by FloraZia.com and G-scatter.

This image is a very personal one, it comes from a very dark place in my life when I was suicidal. However, the end message is very hopeful and full of love and acceptance.

Knowing myself, I felt as though I had lost my connection to what I truly want, which is to live in nature and constantly absorb its majestic beauty and involve myself in its tangible yet brutal challenges. Emotionally, I was very depressed for a long time and all I wanted was to stop existing and the idea of being absorbed by the earth was a very warm and inviting one.